On the drive back from dropping off Lisa and Megan, I was listening to some U2 in the car: "I still haven't found what I'm looking for." And in my overly exhausted state, I really got to thinking. At dinner tonight, Megan and I were discussing the phenomenon of reality versus fantasy. In so many cases, I realize that what draws me so much to something, yes, mostly likely a guy, is what I start believing could happen. There is some importance of taking the future into account, but it'd be entirely naive of me to ignore the present and what is actually going on. In retrospect, there is always a clear line between the way things are and they way I viewed to be. However, I have a hard time distinguishing that through my cliched rose colored glasses. I wonder if there's something so wrong with my occasionally overzealous optimism....maybe... maybe not.
I often pride myself on being computer naive, but tonight I actually feel somewhat accomplished. My computer is essentially a glorified cd player/communication device... and when my sound didn't work after installing win2k, I was devastated. However, I am the master and now can listen to my lovely array of music once again. It's back to late night dance parties in my room :)
I've been working on making Better than Sex Cake. I'm so excited to eat it tonight... my mouth is watering in anticipation.